Up and Out

As a daily journalist, I sometimes go back and look at my old entries and wonder at the progress I’ve made. I’m now around 10 months since my realization, and I can’t imagine going back to the way I was before. In some ways, I am happier now, because I am finally addressing something that has eaten at me my whole life. But in other ways, I’m a bigger mess than I’ve ever been before, because I sometimes feel like my life has gotten so confusing, and for every question I find an answer to, three more questions pop up.

Ouch! I have experienced this many times. Because people tend to be scantily clad at a pool or beach, it’s hard to ignore the obvious differences between how you feel your body should be and how your body is.